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The pregnancy pg. 3
Okay were pregnant things are sweet for the moment he is so happy and can’t hide it. He tells me I’m his Jr. wife, he provides protects and does everything a husband is suppose to. It wasn’t all good, we broke up about a thousand times and fell back in love within a few days, sometimes a matter of minutes. In case you are wondering does “she” know yet, well I was at a party before the pregnancy and he decided to spray me, its where one showers you with money, “she” was watching so it made her ask him was I his girlfriend. From then on “she” began to play detective. We have had phone arguments at times. “She” called me once around the end of the year in 2007 threatening to kill me, in hopes of scaring me away, but by then I was in love with him, not to mention five months pregnant, so really didn’t have the strenghth to argue with her. The fatter I got the futher he got and that just killed me. I was very depressed some days and some days happy. My emotions went on how I was treated by him. I began telling my Dr. The situation and all that I was going through. She was the sweetest, most loving Dr. I ever had. She was so worried about me, I didn’t blame her, at times that man took me through hell! She wanted me to start takeing things, but I refused. Although she knew about my married husband, she still thought my hormones played a role, maybe so, but I knew she didn’t fully understand being pregnant and committed to a married man. During some point in the pregnancy he makes me mad, and I called the Sr. wife and let her know that he and I were having a baby that he begged me for! Oh boy he was pissed, it didn’t last long he came running back to my door, demanding that I be good! Maybe I was wrong for this, but I remember calling her and telling her that it wasn’t his baby, I can still hear her now “you made my day, so you will leave him alone and fine the real baby’s daddy”? “She” didn’t know that he is the only man that I have been with. He tried to let her know that I was only making a fool out of her, but she had her heart set on thinking it wasn’t his baby, damn I love DNA!!!!!! Ok yes I was wrong, but it was funny at the time. I kept being bad so eventually I lost my allowance. So I have our son, 2/2008 he is a Jr. I remember him coming to see us, he was all over me hugging me saying that it felt good just to hold me, wow I remember like it was yesterday. April 8th 2008 he calls me and ask me if I like white or yellow gold. By April 12th I was calling her again letting her know he had just left my house and what color underwear he had on. She seemed not to like that and begin to tell me that I seduced him, and I was pregnant before I met him! Wow that would of been one long, scarey pregnancy, clearly she was in denial. He was pissed, but as usual he was back at my door step by April 17th. Anyway through the year of 2008 we got closer, we fought, but made it and got stronger. April 30th he put a ring on my finger, I was such a spoiled bratt, I complained about it being too small, I really hurt his feelings and I felt so bad! He bought me a wedding ring, that made me feel important, I felt like I had a symbol of our covenant and that made me love him even more. I felt it in his soul that he loved me and that alone completed me! Yet the dramma doesn’t stop, there was a wedding reception he invited me to in July 08, he loved showing off the pretty, young wife. “She” decides to show out that night, catching him talking to me in the hallway “she” decides to send her anger my way by calling me out of my name. I guess she thought we were on the telephone and I was going to sit there and take it! She loved to call me a slut, so I go to her table and go smoothe off. I called her every bitc* in the book, I let her know that she was just mad that I gave him a son and she can’t, I told her when the DNA test comes back she will be crying. I bet you guys are wondering what he was doing, lol he just sat there begging us to stop. That was a Saturday he called me Sunday asking what happen and by Monday he’s in my room pumping and sweating telling me how much he loves me. By 9-29-08 I was crying my heart out. I was so hurt, he really let me down. I needed something from him, he told me he would do it, but didn’t, it angers me now thinking of it, but as you know we worked things out. We had a few more fights before the year was up, but wait until you hear what happened next!
3 comments July 26, 2010
That next moring pg.2
The next morning, my wondering mind gave him a call, we began to have small talk. At that time I had been dating someone else for about six months, but he lived two hours away. I stayed strong and denied him for a few months, and letting him know that I don’t have time for a married man or any dramma, but in the process of denying him, I was still going out to lunch with him and talking to him all the time. We talked three times or more each day. He would bring me money and food to my job he would drop everything to see me. One night I decided to give into his request, but he didn’t take me serious, so he never showed. It was 2-8-07 Thursday night the first time I gave in and we got romantic!!!! I was so ashamed, I knew at that moment my relationship with God had been ruiend!! I went to work the next day so distrought my friend knew something was wrong when she asked me I just began to cry! So in order to not feel like a whore or one night stand I allowed it to continue and from then on he was stuck to me like glue. Around April 07 I stop working, and that provided so much time for him and I. I mean seriously, I would wake up and be ready and waiting because I knew he would come pick me up by 11:00am. Things moved so fast, we got too serious. He wanted me to commit to him and I wanted to be with only him. We began to grow on each other. Love had built some very high wall around us. I don’t know how a baby came into the topic, but he began to talk about it by March. Sometimes I read my diary and see where I was pleading with myself to leave him alone, telling myself I am worth more and that he is a devil just trying to use me, I prayed over and over not even realizing I was already pulled in. “She” and I had no contact with each other at that time so he and I were living the life! I got to a point where I found myself wanting a baby! He and I actually began planning to have a child, but the thing, the crazy little thing with him is that he actually thought I would hide the pregnancy. He only had one daughter at the time and was dying for more kids, but truly assumed no one would know about the baby. I let him know up front that he must be out his damn mind and that I wasn’t going to hide anything, he can do what he wants, but I wasn’t feeling it. I guess he didn’t mind because we continued to have a baby. I was so gone in the head I actually found myself sad because I wasn’t getting pregnant fast enough. I thought I couldn’t have kids. It had been a while, my son was six and my daughter was five, yea right by June I was pregnant with his son!
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